Still waiting...

Sorry we are not being too faithful on posting regularly yet. It's mostly because there is nothing new to report, unfortunately. I'm a bit grumpy about it, because I feel our expectations were raised when we were told we "could be gone by Christmas" a month ago! Well, it's not likely at this point, and that is ok, because we would like to spend Christmas with our boys. However, it would be nice to get a phone call saying that we are leaving the day after Christmas!! :)

Since it was Bethany's birthday last week, I thought it would be perfect to get our travel approval call; it didn't happen, but I remained optimistic, thinking we would get the call yesterday, on Dan's birthday. Well, that didn't happen either, so now I'm going to hope it comes tomorrow...and then the next day...and then the next. Get the picture?? :)

I don't know how people who are waiting for their first child deal with this waiting thing. We are so blessed to have 3 boys that keep us plenty busy, and I still am getting impatient! Of course, most of you know, that is just in my nature to be impatient!! :)

Well enough rambling and smiley faces from me tonight. God is in control. He has been throughout this entire process. Instead of just saying it, I need to act as though I believe it to be true. Then I can do away with these negative and crabby attitudes. Stay tuned...

Becky

Just a day...or two...or two hundred.

Well, Dan has finally convinced me to write on here. It's difficult to do, because I have to live in the reality of "waiting" to type this blog. Normally, I just go through the routine of each day, thinking about Bethany, but not really dwelling on the fact that we are waiting...and that she is waiting - although she doesn't know it. It's only a few months until we go to China and get her...not long if you consider she has been waiting for almost 3 years now. But, each day we miss something...one more hug, one more smile, one more giggle. When I get to thinking about it that way, I get frustrated. WHY does it take so long for China to get these kids "paper-ready" and get them into their forever home? Why must these kids go to bed, night after night without knowing a mommy or a daddy? I realize that I am only just now awaking to this reality that affects so many kids around the world. God created the family, and I know it tears at his heart so much more than mine that these kids don't know FAMILY. We're coming Bethany...just as soon as we can.

I often think about Bethany's possible reaction to us when she meets us for the first time, and then realizes she is coming with us. How traumatic for her it will be!! Can you imagine being ripped from everything you know as a 3 year old? New faces, new language, new foods, new everything! At that age, you are pretty aware of your routine and are pretty comfortable with your life. Gosh, I pray we can get her through it...it will be only God's doing, because I know I am not going to know what to do!

Well, I'm a bit more of a worrier than Dan, as you can tell by my post... sorry about that. :)
Becky